Exercising is my cigarette in that it calms me down on a stressful day. But unlike cigarettes it’s healthy.
Day 1 done and man what a day. As glamorous as it may sound “camp videographer” has to be one of the worst jobs. I don’t get to spend time with kids or out in nature, I sit in front of a computer. However, I do appreciate the “behind-the-scenes” ness of it all. Doing video has always been a struggle for me. I love the end product, I like seeing peoples reactions to it, but I dislike the process. I work well under pressure, but I don’t like who I am under pressure. I get snippy and detached. In one way it helps me get the job done but it causes me to snap at people without reason.
Such a situation happened today, unfair accusations, realization and need for an apology. I’m glad I was able to apologize but I wish I didn’t do things that caused me to apologize in the first place.
The best time I had today was after turning in my “final product” going on a jog up to the ball field. I jogged up there, laid on a bench and prayed. This is going to be a rough month but I am looking forward to it. So far I have not been able to have those conversations I want to have. I heard earlier about some of the brokeness students here are already opening up about. Lord, if I can speak to just one of them and make an impact for you please open up that opportunity.
Love,
Bryce